Elegia

Anne Victorino d' Almeida (1978)

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Elegia

String Quartet

There are different ways to deal with the death of a loved one, and there are also different phases in the pain that we feel.
I lost my Grandfather on the 5th November of 2000. The sadness that I felt was overwhelming, but the sudden grief that struck me at first caught me in a wave of emotions and thoughts, crying compulsively and laughing uncontrolably. In that little church, I remember looking into the infinite and remembering many moments that I had lived with him, learning about life, hilarious situations, walking with him, trips we went on, conversations and even arguments, the happiness when his Great Grandchildren were born, at the same time I felt myself relaxing while going back into the past thinking about these moments that would never be lost.
Never the less, coming back to reality I suddenly realised painfully that I would have to learn to live with this grief with only these memories to mark his presence with us.
Ten years have passed, my Grandfather is every day in my thoughts and in the stories I tell, but inside me there is a huge confusion; worse than loosing someone, worse than accepting the fact of loosing somebody, and this is not understanding death.
I do not unerstand death.
This Elegy was first played by the Lopes Graça Quartet in which I play the second violin. Therefore there are specific moments that I wrote for myself so that I could then share them musically with the public in a way that nobody else could feel.
This piece is dedicated to my Grandfather.